kasssidy

31 January 2009 @ 10:28 pm

you know that face

yes. you know that face. the face of: "I NEED TO CLEAN MY ROOM, BUT ITS SO PAINFUL, I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT."

I do this every time! wah, wah, my rooms not clean! Then I spend 5 hours cleaning it, then it gets dirty within 2 weeks. I need a system. a system that involves me acting like an adult, and cleaning up after myself...wow, is that so hard to ask!? I have clothes and art stuff everywhere! theres not enough room for the things that I own. FOR THE LOVE OF TENNIS! I even have a fan in the window... ITS WINTER! what the hell is wrong with me. I need to dust off my brain and take care of this.

for all of you postive thinkers saying: "it can't be THAT bad", I GIVE YOU THIS:

speechless? try living in it. I know I have.. THAT IS WHY, TODAY, IN THE YEAR OF 2009, I WILL GET IN THE SPIRT OF CHANGE AND CLEAN MY ROOM! THANK YOU OBAMA, & GOD BLESS AMERICA!

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26 January 2009 @ 09:54 pm

Things are changing,

     but things are getting better. time for me, and only me.
I have had my bike for a week and I still have not ridden it. what the hell is wrong with me? I want to feel the wind in my hair! and use my cute little basket and lights. AND EXERCISE! don't forget about that! Toned legs! sounds good to me.

     Today I spent the day shopping with my mom, got a new coat and some tights! I went to class at 5:00-7:50. class was good. I think my teacher really respects my style, which is good because he is a senior designer at funk, meaning, I might be able to get a foot in the door, not just in his firm, but in the graphic design community as a whole. exciting!

     All of my stuff is moved out of byron's apartment. hopefully living at home again will fix some things, who knows. I need time for me. I don't even know who I am anymore. and that's not a good feeling. very stressful.

I don't like talking about my relationship with Byron with people, they always make it seem like this huge deal, when, on any other day, they don't give a shit about me.

"WHAT? YOU AND BYRON BROKE UP? I THINK ILL MESSAGE YOU ON MYSPACE AND ASK YOU ABOUT IT LIKE WE ARE BFF, EVEN THOUGH I NEVER TALK TO YOU. IM GOING TO TRY TO MAKE YOU FEEL AS ACKWARD AS POSSIBLE OKAYYY???!!!!!"

its really stupid. its either byron, or byron and kassidy. theres no JUST KASSIDY. and if there is, very few people acknowlage it as something that exsists.(people that I have met since college treat me much better, I'm mostly refering to highschool peers)
      all of his friends are so sexist. I guess the only way they would like me is if I was giggly and passive? yeah, im not doing that (and I'm never going to do that, because that's who I am. and that doesnt make me a bitch either).
I've always tried to be nice, but I guess thats not enough to be treated like a person.

man man man, don't get the wrong idea about this post though. I don't hate Byron. we are still friends. I just cannot handle the stress of being in a relationship with him right now, it's too much work for me to help him through his emotional problems, and then have to deal with my own. he has a lot of growing up to do, I have a lot of things I need to do just for myself. maybe someday when he is more mature, it can happen, but right now I think less time together will do us both good.

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Mood:

calm